How are you doing without me?

Have you been sleeping well? Have you been eating well? Will you have plans this weekend? Have you spoken about me? Have you secretly missed me? Have you wished me dead? Or perhaps I have not even inched into your mind at all?

I wonder if you have sleepless nights, interrupted by lonely sobs. I wonder if you have lost your appetite for days, pigged out for an hour and found yourself hurling everything over a toliet. I wonder if you have tried to arrange plans with anyone, anyone at all to distract yourself from your own deadly thoughts. I wonder if you have caught your own tongue mentioning my name. I wonder if you silently laid in bed and called out my name several times in hopes that I would respond and wipe your overflowing tears. I wonder if you have wished yourself to never wake up in the morning.

Because, I’m not doing to good honestly. But as long as you are sleeping well, eating your heart out, getting out there, talking to others, and forgotten about me I am sure I will be okay in time. If not, I hope the clouds will be the pillow I rest on as I rest with a heavy heart in a star filled sky. Please, continue to do well without me.

(Source: lonelyn, via flatbeat)

182 notes | 6 months ago

Misleading Most,

How are you doing without me?

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