Misleading Most,

They say that emotions, when so deeply felt, can manifest physically.

Last night I was laying in bed, tossing and turning for about 3 hours, because my head felt so heavy. It felt like twenty-million things were in it, swimming around, tearing at each other. Thoughts were colliding and multiplying all at the same time.

Not long after that, my sinuses started clogging up and it felt like I was physically underwater, gasping for air. My eyes started tearing up. I felt so scared, for the first time in my life, just laying there in bed but feeling like I was at the bottom of a deep, dark well. It felt like I was really going to drown.

And somewhere in the middle of all that, I guess I fell asleep. I guess my body gave up trying to process and just shut down.

Next thing I knew, my dad was slapping me in the face with the new Details magazine that just came in the mail, begging me to get up for work.

It still feels like I’m swimming though. But now I’m in the ocean.

And I can’t find the shore.

(Source: stateofjoe)

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